A vision of something I long for and hope for, for us both, for the future
The structure of the last paragraphed sentence actually perfectly sums up how it, the phasing, worked
--- I long for and hope for
-- For us both
- For the future
I wake up in a bed listening to a friend of mine reciting Kevin Bloody Wilson lyrics
A song about how he riles up the under 9's football teams at the local park and incites a riot between the two sides
Through the whole song all you can think is how disgusting and uncouth everyone must think he is, (which is the idea of the lyrics), until the end where he succeeds in getting the teams of kids to fight each other, when you realise the genius of the song
I don't think it's a real Kevin Bloody Wilson song in the reality, but it's definitely a Kevin Bloody Wilson song
He is singing it at some type of karaoke in the bar
For some reason there is a bed in the corner of the bar and I'm sleeping it. Or at least I was until he woke me up
I get up and wrap my blanket up around my arm
I'm confused as to whether that is my friend Travis doing karaoke, or whether it is actually Kevin Bloody Wilson doing a gig in this small pub
I walk to the other end of the bar looking for the bathroom
There is no bathroom at this end
The girl at the bar says something to me and I need to ask her to repeat it because I didn't hear her
"Its getting busier now" she said and I agree, though I'm impatient because I need the bathroom to clean myself up
I ask the girl at the bar where the bathroom is and she tells me it is around the other end of the bar
I walk around the bar and it morphs into the second stage of the 3 parts of the dream, which I believe all fit together as one vision for someone else
We are in a different bar, something more like a nightclub with a band setting up across from the bar that appear to be just about to start their first song
They are all attractive women, dressed up in glittery sequins, that look like a professional cover band
I don't know them, but I wonder if they are any good
I wonder if they'll let me get up and sing a song with them
I'll find out after I go to the bathroom
I'm actually excited at the possibility of performing
I walk around the bar again and the 3rd phase of the dream begins
I'm at some type of country club, RSL, or community hall
The sort of pub you can take the whole family, kids and all. But I don't see any kids dancing
The women the are dancing seem to be on a night out
A woman I know named Julia walks in front of me telling me to smile as I walk past her
I'm surprised to see her in my dream
I'm consciously awake to the fact this is the younger version of her I knew as a child and that she looks amazing
She starts walking with and takes my hand as we walk, playfully dancing and talking to me as we go
"Now, I'm going to come visit you in Beirut" she says to me and I am confused as to why she would do that
"And why would you do that?" I ask her, honestly wanting to know
But, I know I'm in some type of parallel dimension here
It feels as though in this dimension, I am younger and i may/might be in the military. 'I joined the military?' I think to myself. 'And I'm shipping out to Beirut?'
It makes a little sense to me, that if, for some reason, I ever did follow this path, that Julia would (or could, so it appears) have been my 'sweetheart', so to speak, because our Dads worked in the Airforce together ...
I'm still confused why she would be coming to see me somewhere I'm deployed
She must be in the military too, maybe? I'm not sure
But, I'm conscious of the fact that I need to at least act like the version of me in this dream ...
Because I feels so nice to have someone holding my hand that cares about me like this ...
I don't want the dream to end. Even though I know it's just a dream
Even though I know it's about to end ...
I want to stay there/here, like this ...
Even if I know it's not real
So I cover up my confused question to her, by giving her a cheeky smile, as if I'm joking
She breaks out in a smile and slaps my hands gently as if to say 'I'm the worst' ...
And then I wake up
And something in my cries out "NO!"
It wants to stay longer
Not because of her. Not because of that version of events, where we were or what was happening ...
But because I was happy
We were happy
It, was happy
I wake up feeling absolutely miserable
Until I work out, that the 3 parts of the dream actually fit together in phase, to something that someone else saw
Something that the love of my life Bradie saw in her dreams
If you put the 3 sections of them together over the top of each other in phase ...
Then it means she was shown something very intense and beautiful ...
To do with her
To do with me
To do with us
A vision of love that would be nearly impossible for any woman to ignore ...
Especially considering it would have been in full colour and so damn real, she would have been able to touch, taste and even smell
Now, I just hope I can live up to her expectation with the real thing some day
I love her
I love loving her
I love
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