Light beings

I had a dream that was more like a vision, or some sort of dimensional cross-over, because I could still see, hear and feel it when I woke up

I could close my eyes once I woke up and still see these beings and hear what they were saying, while fully awake

This was real. Far more than a dream. The light-beings were so blindingly bright they were all I could see

Even with my eyes closed, after waking up, all I could see was brilliant white light flooding my vision

And I had that overwhelming feeling of warm, fuzzy happiness, gentleness and peace

I could still feel the tangled line inside my body pulling against the warm feeling of the light, but it felt much smaller than normal

I concentrated on it for a second and I could feel it unraveling far faster than it normally does

It started with a dream where I was trying to beat a train to a destination that I knew had some type of light-beings onboard

It was a matter of urgency that I equated to being the end of all existence if I didn't get there first. I needed to beat them there, to be there before them, or everything was done

I raced the train there across borders and obstacles, with nobody really helping me or listening to me about the danger of what was coming

I crossed a border, putting my hands up and doing several Backflips for them while doing it (I'm not sure what this was about) and then once I was across the border I continued racing the train

I asked a famous movie actor to give me a ride in a fast car like he does in the movies, telling him it as life or death, but he didn't seem to understand the urgency

So I left him behind and took the car myself. Drove myself

I came to a location close to where the train was arriving and started frantically telling people I know that I needed a gun, quickly

I knew they had plenty of guns, but for some reason they were all in pieces. Almost like they had a business fixing guns

I asked someone I know named Julian for a gun and pointed to the massive light coming from the sky outside, even though it was night, "See that? If I don't get a gun, we're all dead" I stressed to him

Sensing my urgency he pointed me to a gun under wraps hidden up in the top of a closet. "You can take the AR" he said, but warned me "the vibrations down the middle are dangerous"

I touched the wrapped gun momentarily, considering taking it, but I knew how dangerous it was. It was a last resort. I knew it would destroy a lot more than just those I wanted to stop/prevent becoming light-beings, it could destroy everything, including me

It would definitely destroy those I use it against

But I wasn't sure it would destroy me. I felt like I'd likely survive, but I wasn't 100% sure. It might destroy me in the process of destroying them, so I wasn't willing to take the risk of using it

Not when I was certain I could deal with them safely, with a smaller weapon like a pistol

My friend (the she one who was attacked by a shark in a dream I had a few nights ago) turned up dressed as a security guard and he had a gun on his hip

He was exactly who I had been waiting/looking for and he the exact gun I needed

I took the gun from his hip quickly and told him I needed it, it was a emergency

Then ...

I'm talking to light beings somewhere between (a)sleep and (a)wake

Brilliant white blinding light poured from their faces and eyes, though it seemed to somehow inexplicably alternate between pouring from their eyes without their skin, to their skin without their eyes

Somehow, also inexplicably, I saw myself from a perspective that was both inside and outside of myself at the same time. As if I were looking and listening upon myself at the same time I was speaking as myself, from within myself, but as another version of myself

Though it light body was different

I had fire in my eyes. Though it was not hot somehow

I had the same light pouring from my skin and eyes that all the others did, but that was also a burning, blood orange colour in my eyes

I could see the colour, but not see the colour at the same time. At the same time as there was a hollow emptiness in my eyes

I could sense the heat of what I knew to be flames in my eyes, but at the same time there was no heat, they did not burn and I knew the flame couldn't hurt me

It felt more like orange-coloured "blood" type of light

Exactly like the brilliant white light that poured out of our faces and eyes, but a different type of light

I threatened to destroy them all

I don't remember telling them "why" I was threatening to destroy them, but it felt like they/we all knew why

I wanted something from them

And though we were at odds, it felt strangely like we weren't at odds at the same time. Like I didn't want to threaten them or destroy them, but it was necessary some how

And somehow they knew it as well

There was no violence, anger it hatred in my threats. There was some type of understood necessity to it, that they seemed to know and understand as well as I did and accept without conflict

There was a sadness I could feel and it was somehow connected to the invisible tether I can feel tangled within my body. Like some sort of intangible DNA prison

Light started fading around me as if they were disappearing

I got momentary senses I was destroying them, or destroying some sort of light I could feel leaving

I saw my eyes again. Fire. I wondered for a second in a more innocent version of myself if I was superior to them and the answer that I got was a sense of both yes and no. I was capable of using something against them, but it was not from a position that could ever be said superior or "above" them because such a distinction seemed unnecessary, like it was a none existent state of mind amongst our shared understanding

It felt like there was no "me" and "them" or "me above them" or "them above me", there was only what is and need be

And I guess, in the sense of the sadness, what need not be

Whatever it was I was doing against them, or could do, be it of myself or otherwise, it was not something I, them, or we, wanted. Thought, it was happening

I was awake by this stage and concentrating on using the overwhelming feeling of peace, gentleness and warmth to try pull this tether from my body, that I've been trying to remove for 8 years now

One of the light beings spoke to me here, through a sadness that made me tear up and gave me some advice

Advice that I felt and understood instinctively, almost as if I shared the consciousness with her as she spoke, to feel it as she did, but from a outside perspective

Advice that seemed to be given to me but I knew at the same time was for someone else

Advice that I think is meant to be given to everyone, regarding the meaning of life

A question I knew the answer to already, albeit in nowhere near as eloquent and beautiful words as she used

Advice that I could feel, as she was saying it, was meant for my love Bradie, before all others

Advice that I will not write down or repeat in this world ever, until I've spoken to Bradie personally

After which, I'll give it to anyone who wants to hear it ...

Freely ...

Along with everything else I know, learn, or can teach