This was a very clear dream/vision
Very vivid and real
He has a large pet serpent which sits underneath him in some type of enclosure
I don't want to go near him, because of a fear I have, to do with serpents
There is something about them I understand, which feels like I know they are almost certain to bite/attack me, no matter what. Almost like instinct. For both me and them
And this particular serpent is massive
The serpent comes out of its enclosure
I am frozen momentarily, unable to move. With my arms spread in a Jesus Christ pose, with some type of invisible force pulling me up into the air
He assures me I won't be hurt and I relax
I feel the serpent wrapping up around my body
He tells me to feel the ecstasy. Which I do. A feeling of euphoria wraps around my body with the serpent and I am laid forward on my face, floating in the air
Then he tells me to also feel the pain
As he says this, the serpent bites me. Sinking its teeth into my back, just below me right shoulder
When this happens, I am transported to another place and time
I am in the middle of Kakadu National Park. At a remote Hostel next to the East Alligator River
I appear to have traveled back in time, to when I used to work here with my now ex-girlfriend
I am conscious of the fact that I have traveled back in time, as I speak to her
She is angry with me. I am able to look her in the eyes. They are real eyes. Striking and unmistakably real. Not like normal dream entities. I am able to consciously look her in the eyes, like a real person
I try telling her that I am not Sam (me)
She gets more angry with me
I tell her to look at me, so our eyes are locked while I repeat to her "I am not Sam"
She still doesn't seem to get it
I think this may be because I am not explaining myself properly
I actually AM Sam, just not the version in time that she thinks I am
Possibly, this is why she isn't "seeing" what I'm trying to communicate as I say it, while looking her in the eyes
I think me not explaining exactly what I mean, is actually making her more angry. Like she thinks I am lying to her
For a moment I am disappointed. Like I thought she would be able to understand the depth in what I was trying to convey, looking at her. But she was only able to see a veil layer within our eye contact
I am disappointed. And also frustrated by the fact she is still concerned with whatever it is/was that she was/is annoyed with me about, at the time. When I had/have precious little time to convey something to her, that it far more important
So I decided to stop messing around and make things undeniably clear. Do it the easy way
I pull her aside and say "Look, what you think you know. You do not"
I physically touch her head as I speak, to take her mind into my hands for a moment
"Here. Let me clear things up for you"
I centre her mind for a moment
As clear as she has ever known in her life
Clear enough that she becomes aware of a "voice in her head", which leads her. That she has never been aware of before this point
I pull her into a moment of deep clarity, where she realises that her mind is out of sync and "something" is connected to her, which is feeding her belief of things being as they are not
Something which is feeding her bad thoughts. Making her angry
Something which also seems to be feeding off her somehow
Making her not understand things which are right in front of her
For the first time, she realises that the voice inside her head is not her friend in the way she thought it was. It wasn't even really her voice, like she always thought it was
I overwhelm her with every sense, feeling and emotion she needs, to understand what is being done to her and how she is being manipulated
Then, while she is still confused about what is happening, I show her what it is keeping her from
"This is how it is supposed to be"
I pull her mind into visions in a different world. A different time
One where she is connected and purely loved
I hold her inches away from me within this projected vision. Looking her in the eyes as I flood pure light and love through her
I make her glow and radiate purest love
Something I know she has never felt before
I give her a very clear and undeniable taste of what that love is supposed to feel like, when there are no blockages within her, interfering with it
Then I give her the understanding, of why the power of the connection is being kept from her
I let her understand that the something which is connected to her, is stopping her from feeling this
It is taking something away from her, that she didn't even know was there to be stolen
I give her advice on what she needs to do to fix it
Then, as she and I are both waking up in the real world, I tell her that she needs remember these things when she wakes
I realise that the person I was talking to in the dream/vision, was not my ex-girlfriend. This was just a projection that allowed me to link directly to the person I was really talking to, who was someone else completely
Someone I think was/is Bradie Mercer
I warned her, as she was waking up, that the things I just showed her would fade, as she slowly re-synced to the waking realm
That the thing connected to her, that I disconnected when I centered and focused her mind, would return
And she would start to forget the feeling I had shown her
I told her that it was important for her to remember it as she woke up
Remember why I had shown it to her
And I told her, to come find me
For if nothing else, than to know if I can help her control and focus her mind in such a way in the waking realm
Maybe, she might even be able to feel my love for her. Even if only just a friend
Even if only just a fraction of what I had shown her and let her feel in the dream
With the help of the serpent who allowed us to be momentarily connected in such a way
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