In this dream/vision am in a room with Meika Woollard. She is asleep and tangled up in some elastic ropes which are also attached to the post of the bed she is sleeping in
I try to really gently untangle her, as not to wake her while I do
I fail. She wakes up and realised she's tangled in long elastics connected to the bed and realises I'm trying to help her and untangle her
I apologise telling her I was trying not to wake her up and she laughs and says it is OK
I realise there is no more point being slow and gentle and I simply break the elastics with my hands and free her
Then she is doing her nails. She keeps saying "Samuel" and I'm wondering if she's calling her nail polish Samuel or calling me Samuel
I'm about to go over and ask her if she wants me to do her nails for her, but something distracts me that needs me attention before I can
It sounds funny to say, and probably would have sounded funny to her for me, a man, to offer to do her nails. But I think I actually knew how to do them when i was offering, because I had a sub-vision of myself doing a womans nails and even showing her a trick to getting a wavy effect with a light gold glittery second layer by hanging her fingers down and lightly shaking them after applying drops in a very specific place on her finger
I think the thing that distracted me was another young girl, because after this I have a girl who is younger than Meika climbing on my shoulders
I'm not sure if she's supposed to be my daughter or not, but it doesn't feel like it
She's not that much younger than Meika. They might even be the same age. But for whatever reason she is sitting on my shoulders, like we are playing, like you would with a child who is much younger
Its all very innocent and sweet. It feels like she is trying to wrestle with me and I'm basically being her big old play-fight punching bag, letting her win
Possibly she is trying to do some type of 'sitting on the man's shoulders', leg grapple style fighting moves like you see in the movies. It seems like a valid reason why it feels like a girl who is way too big for shoulder rides is innocently sitting on my shoulders
Meika is studying while its happening and I notice her talking to herself, like she is answering her own thoughts, while trying to work out the answer to a question
I notice from this that she struggles to centre and focus her thoughts, so I tell the girl on my shoulders to quickly jump off for a second
When I do, she does it, but runs off into one of the bedrooms like I've offended her or hurt her feelings
I almost run after her to explain why I needed her off, but I decide she can wait a minute and that she'll understand when I go tell her after talking to Meika
I go sit next to Meika on the floor where she is studying
"Your mind buzzes doesn't it?" I say to her, sincerely recognising a problem I have myself in how I saw her talking a problem through with herself
She is confused at first, until I illustrate how she is tries to think, but a million thoughts keep jumping around in her mind at once and she needs to constantly try sort through them all
She understands my explanation (with hand gestures to illustrate), freaking out that I understood exactly what she is experiencing
I tell her to try something and show her how to centre and focus her thoughts
It seems to work because she instantly seems like she becomes still along with her thoughts
(I'm not going to detail what it was or how it is done, so that if anyone is ever interested in what I'm writing here, they can ask the question and I'll tell/show them)
I explain to her why it happens
"You are sitting her studying, not doing anything else. But your mind, it wants to be up and doing other things, so it does, even while you are sitting there. Your mind and thoughts become like a toddler running around you in circles, while you are sitting there trying to drink a cup of tea"
She laughs and agrees saying "Oh my God, that's exactly what it's like!"
I go a little more in depth her including offering to show her other ways to meditate and clear or quiet the mind, whilst I'm starting to walk out of the room ...
So that I can go apologise to the girl I asked to get off my shoulders and explain I had something important I needed to explain to Meika for a second before I forgot and that's why she needed my attention
I woke up here
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